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Monday, May 17, 2010

erm. Rather sad that nobody seem to visit my blog. :(

Haiz. but what make all things worse is life is tough recently...

i just found out my life have no much friends left. no friendship. how sad right. sad! very sad.

i am too blind in relationship le ba. but till now i still am. too engross.. this is my personally ba. cant help. but learning to move on. since my partner doesnt make me his pirority then i must learn form him.

i found out that i have alot to learn from him so i wouldnt hurt myself.
1. Be selfish
2. Love yourself more than anybody
3. Mix with more friends not parnter

Great tips right? erm. Relationship is going down and down. i guess it hard to pull through le ba. he already said everything clear le. he kept saying that i am not the girl he used to know. he kept saying that "he is no longer the guy i am looking for right".... but i think that should be said to him:

"I AM NO LONGER THE GIRL YOU ARE LOOKING FOR !"

To him,
you are still use to having pretty, SKINNY, flirty, playful girlfriend and not me ba... ...
i am a mother type of girl. unless u looking for a mother if not i am definately not your dish.


To me,
i shall wish my luck first in finding another guy that is worth my love and love me for who i am.... Though i know its very reality that guys like pretty and skinny girls. but i still hope they can see my inner self, my innner beauty. i will work hard to slim down not because of anybody but myself. Need to be healthy. and of course may all those STUPID GUYS that use to look down on me b4 to eyes red and drop out. then i will step their eyes. WAHAHAH.. sound curel> haha :P
but getting to slim down first is easy to said but hard to do. must really jia you. i always fail. wonder when will be the time i really success! cant wait. hehe!

Sadness...
Is easy for him to say break to me ba.. but i just dont wish these would happened. because i love him. i must kept blaming myself as i am too foolish. everything is lead by myself. he asked me why i love him: but i just dont know. it is what call love ba. my feeling just cant pull away from him.
If he left me, he have no sadness, he have so many friends and so many other target to girlfriends.
but myself, dead! i can just use my 10 finger to count my friends. haiz. i am jealous of him having so many friend and activity, but he never know. cause i dont have so i dont have other time to spilt to my friends. then all time give him. but he blame me for being over in everything... ...
haiz. how i wish i find a bf like that. give everything to me!

Things is hard in life, my eyes are swallon like .. like dont know what... very ugly... i cry so badly he no longer care. just because he is tired of it. just because he is used to it.... ... ...

hugs myself... ...
love myself ... ...

Regards,
jie ying
Rainbow cried till colourless!

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