my cute family!!
hi all, updating life, went out for small SPSU gathering yesterday. Feel pretty good as i have long since join them. :) thanks christie for inviting. Hope to have more outing. Life must move on even things is not going well.
My blood pressure rising high since last week to now.
We fall apart again. This time is worse ever. Each fight getting worse and worse. Looking at the photo of him with the 2 girls playing bowling triggle me. Even when others see think is too far. but its the past and i am able to forgive him.
I dont know whats wrong with him ever since my birthday. He like 360 degree change to a person :( i am really sad. But he never understand. He never sad for anyone before. He stared ignored me and dont msg me and reply me. I felt terrible. VERY! But who can i tell what can i do. I dare not even cry these days. its just so scary. I Kept holding on to my tear. Sometime the tears will roll down a few drops. I have not cry all my sorrow out. I thought it was no use anymore :(
Yesterday Union Outing, dinner at suntec Pizza hut. Have my fav Ocean Catch and chatting with the girls. Thanks girls for listening to me complaint. I feel abit better but still worse. I actually hope i can chat more with mei yin. But never mind. she is tired. We are apart as well. But that is my fault. i dont expect much le. Just feel so weird. I remember last time feeling when mei yin long never see me. She will be so excited and smiling happily can call for my name and come to hug me. But its different now. Just hope things can be better.
Stay home last whole weekend and resting, rotting at home watching REN WO AOU YOU. The last time swimming show. Thought was nice! hehe. Then family dinner on Sunday. hehe. always thought my family was cute and fun, thought we have our problems. But still i Love my family:D
Daddy treat mummy, mei mei and me to Magnum GOLD. The ice cream mum tempted for long. hehe. End up it didnt turn up as good cause its too SWEET! Even i cant stand it as well. Cant really finish one. Erm.
I so wanting to watch movie :( !! But dont know who i can find to watch :( ! he is no longer avaliable!
All his movement/action is making me really tired, making me wanting to give up. But other side of me just cant let go. I think the little love for him is still holding me back. Unless one day all is gone or turn to hatred, then i will be able to leave happily.
Why is he like that? Why must girls get hurt by guys :(
I hate him but love him too.
Jie Ying
